30 July | 1997 | Fort Fuckup

Here we are again new stereo and new walkman anti-shock.
I saw the rushes of PEE for BMV and it looks good.
Ma is in good form Shiela and Brian went to Branigans Pub to
play cards. They had a good time. I got some postcards from
England, Harmonica Sid amongst them. He sent me a sympathy card for
Matty. Nice of him really. But I immediately began thinking he was
only angling for an invitation to come and stay with the great
wonderful me.

Got a letter from the Expert, he has a business card with just his
phone number and the word EXPERT on it, and when you ask him
about it he says" yeah well what do you want to know? Just ask me"
Austailian AA guy. Met hom in london. He might come and visit me.

I’m sure that Kate Schmidt is after me.
Tylee got a little pissed of today because he was tired
of the way I get get things approved when he's not there.
I don’t blame him. Sebastian used to do sneaky stuff like this all
the time. It drove me nuts. I’ll need to keep an eye on that.
The Pee ad is looking good. Old William whasname did a good job.
I hope the editor can rise to the occasion. At least it’s shot now.
The poster for Nikon (fridge) is approved so that’s going to be nice.
I’m going to get some free furniture from Shaun Tierney on Friday.
Which s cool. Office stuff only but who cares. I’m slimmer now
I can definitely feel it and it feels great. I keep thinking all these
chicks are coming on me I maybe right but my ego is just
not a reliable guage.

There’s absolutey nothing in my fridge.
Huge fridge with half an onion in it. I’ve got
some coffee but that’s about it. It’s a lovely morning that awful
heart is now subsided. Ted really liked the christmas idea yesteardy
He said ‘nice diving catch” I‘m assuming that’s a baseball thing.
Graham said something about making “a silk purse out of a sow’s ear”
I think that’s his version on speaking "European" Now I know how
much praise Sebastian must have got when I wasn’t
around. Also I now know how hard it is to resist encouaraging it.
The praise is so sweet. And the women like Kate Schmidt
look at you differently. Like you’re suddenly good looking.
That slight tilt of the head that denotes attraction. Sebastian
being the front-man was lapping it up for years I can see Carter
going the same way as I did. Moody and wronged but unabe to
say anything about it because why complain when the ideas are
being well received? I mean I’m not doing anything wrong I’m just
doing what'sin front of me. And he gets his credit doesn’t he?
Well then.
If it had been left to him he would have been too
busy slitting his wrists to do a decent ad. I just keep my own
area clean I can only control myself.... I can’t control him.

Dry cleaners were closed before I could get to them.
So I was forced to turn up looking rough at the big
Thursday night meeting (no suitin other words) but it was still
enjoyable. Always is. Work’s going well. We did a funny thing on the
Pond sequence with W as Santa. (Paint a white beard and santa hat on him)
Works well. Graham likes it. Graham is a funny guy. I get the feeling he’d
like to befriend me. I feel I should go along with it bit I'm afraid of
him finding out about me..like being in AA and my way of life.

Funny thought: a guy who hasn’t been laid in so long he has
to take out his archaeological brush to find his penis.
He has to organize a Dig to have a wank.